How I Wish To Lay Me Down To Sleep

How I Wish To Lay Me Down To Sleep


I collected a treasure from a kid that got a little personal.
They kept a picture frame full of sticky notes that they had written their nightmares on.
I used to do that when I was younger...
Thinking about it now I am not surprised that I am such a demented person. Anyways, I decided to write up a handful of them for you guys to read. Enjoy my past. -Soul

Note 1. "I keep having that nightmare where they all die again, not the one where its my fault or the one with the creepy man. It is the one without sound that is in black and white. Where the masked figure just looks at me silently as if deciding I would suffer more alive and then kills everyone I love. I don't want to watch but I can't look away, I can't scream and warn them or drown in my sobs. I can't do anything. +1 more sleepless night."
Note 2. "Bugs everywhere. On the walls, in the picture frames, on the lamp, dangling from the ceiling, In MY BED! I know they aren't real but the thought of them crawling into my ears or mouth drives me insane. I have been scratching at my ears trying to get everything out for the past hour... They have been bleeding for at least half of that. My hands are slick with blood and my pillow case is discolored. I will pass it off as a nose bleed in the morning... I hate suffering like this. It happens a lot.
+1 more sleepless night."
Note 3. "Bad night. Everything is creeping me out. Even my posters. The mirror is probably the worst though. Every time I catch a glimpse of myself in it, I have to stop and stare. Frozen by fear. My eyes are empty, black, soulless pits. I hate it. I keep seeing the dark pits and I just... I can't handle it. I know I am dead inside but it somehow it's killing me to actually see just how dead I am.
+1 more sleepless night."
Note 4. "This is the first night that I have been this paranoid in a while. The door keeps moving, I swear I see a disfigured hand on the edge of it. There are faces everywhere. The haunt me from the black screen on the tv, they float around my mirror and window. All staring, laughing. Waiting. I am not alone and they wont let me be.+1 more sleepless night."
Note 5. "Everything hurts, I usually only put my fears and nightmares on here but tonight I really need to say this to someone. Everything hurts... I don't want to move.. or breath. I don't want to fall asleep for fear of waking up but at the same time I cant picture anything better than never waking up. Good night, I'm sorry I fell asleep. -1 sleepless night."
Note 6. "I miss sleeping on the couch. Mom was just 1 wall away. Now I spend hours alone, I go to sleep alone, I wake up alone. I AM ALWAYS ALONE! I know its petty and annoying but I can't stand spending so much time with myself. I think so many vicious things and... I become afraid. Of myself. Please don't leave me alone... +1 more sleepless night." Note 7. "I finally had that one again. The one where I kill them. I kill them all and watch them beg me to stop, over and over until I wake up. I know its not okay and I regret it in the morning but while I am asleep, while I am doing it. I have never felt so alive.
-1 sleepless night"

I'm Still Here

Hey guys,
Just a reminder/warning that I am still here and still lurk amongst the living. I do have something that I am working on writing up but I just wanted to remind you that I am not a good guy. I might do some admirable things sometimes or something like that but I am an inherently twisted person.  If you are wondering what I am talking about I think that the title for that post is going to be "How Close is Too Close?" Let your imaginations run wild.

-Soul